How do I begin, that’s the thought running through my head at this very moment. “I can’t do this I’m not a writer” and “You’re crazy for thinking anyone will want to read this”. I never thought or even expected to want to do this in my life. I’ve been avoiding it out of fear because, how do I start something I never dreamed I could do? I want anyone that is reading this to know that, you have a voice and if you are like me, you too can write a blog, run a restaurant, or whatever you have been dreaming of doing, you just have to start.

I know, I know, its easy to say but doing it is a whole different thing. Where do you start, when you don’t even know how to start. I will say first thing is if you really want something, grab it, hold onto it and just start somewhere. It is terrifying, it is uncomfortable, and it is easy to just overthink and be passive because that is comfortable. That is how what I’ve been doing most of my life. When I look back on my life, I have decided I do not want to regret not doing something out of fear. Starting this blog is something new and foreign to me, I am not a writer and I do not claim to be. I realized, these past couple of months that I have always found comfort in writing but I have never had the thought of putting anything out there for others to read. I have been absolutely terrified to start this because I feel like a fraud. Anyone else every been there? My guess is the answer is yes.

In the last year, I have been doing a lot of inner work. I started speaking to a therapist to work on healing my trauma. I got an 8 week old Australian cattle dog (see above photo of us and highly don’t recommend haha), but I do love this active puppy that helped me remember the joy and healing power of morning walks. This year has been a healing and transformative one for me. I have grown and become more aware of how and why I react to things the way I do. Now I can be mindful of those things to be able to control how I respond to others. This has helped me become a better communicator, partner, and leader to those around me. This journey has helped me grow in ways I never imagined and I haven’t stopped. I want to share my story for those who may feel stuck, lost, afraid, or like nothing will ever get better. I’ve been there and its a dark place that seems like it a never ending pit of doom. There’s no joy everything is forced and you are miserable and don’t understand why. I want to help others know that you are not alone. A lot of people feel this way and there is a way out of it. It’s slow, its painful, but it is worth it when the light starts shining through and you life becomes brighter and brighter.

I am starting this blog for myself and for you, the person who has something to say but doesn’t know quite how to say it yet. I am doing it for you, who may feel lost or broken and can’t see a way out of the dark. I am doing it for the woman who has continued to put everyone else before herself and never asks what do I actually want out of my life. I am hear to heal myself through writing and find others who I can share this with. I want show how I have found my power and strength in working through my inner wounds and moving my body. Trust me I still have a ways to go, but I have found my love of moving my body everyish, but all I can do is take it one step at a time. I want help others like me take their power back into their hands and live a life of joy, meaning and one that you want to live. Mental and physical wellness are keys to all of these things. I have learned through this journey that I have to put myself first in order to take better care of those around me and actually get what I want out of life. I will control my life and not let my life control me or my actions. If you want to learn from my mistakes and triumphs come with me on this journey of growth and living a full life. Remember to shine, smile and find at least one beautiful thing in each day.